#i dont want to be challenged i just want to have fun!!!!
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Found my fav Slay the Princess route recently. Dragon my beloved. Your horrifying beak mouth was an impossible-to-refuse lip syncing challenge 💖
Shoutouts to @blacktabbygames for making such a cool game!
#stp spoilers#slay the princess spoilers#stp dragon#stp the princess and the dragon#I FINISHED THIS LIKE 2 WEEKS AGO AND CONSISTENTLY FORGOT TO POST IT UNTIL I REMEMBERED JUST NOW LMAO FUCK#i made it for my showreel when i realised stp is full of good lines to lip sync to and ooohhhh what a fun challenge it was#and such a fun sketchy art style to emulate too. i dont think i quite nailed it but you have to take liberties when it's animation dont you#anyway this route makes me insane. getting to finally see ourself and finding out we're a SICK ASS GIANT DESTRUCTIVE CREATURE?!!!#the princess is so good at making me feel feeble and pathetic in this game. i had no idea. i am so so happy. this is gender euphoria#thank u my friend @rune-chaser for introducing me to this game bc it's so cool!!! and has made me cry more than once! yayyy!!!#stp#slay the princess#stp princess#stp the long quiet#my animations#my art#EDIT: changed the name in the desc from stp to slay the princess bc i want non stp players to know what the game is. shoulda done it sooner
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Grrrrrr hisssss just once I'd like to find a nice cute relaxing puzzle game where the levels don't get harder the more you complete and the requirements for objectives don't increase like please just let me decorate this cat mansion in peace
#it speaks#on the first floor of this house i could do 1 level and itd tick off 1 objective#now i have to do like 4 levels per objective#and theyre tricky#and the objectives dont always let me decirate the room sometimes its just fukkin#talking to an egg#i dont want to be challenged i just want to have fun!!!!
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It fits the character, okay?
AI DI + the Little Red Riding Hood saga KISEKI: DEAR TO ME (2023)
#kiseki: dear to me#kisekiedit#kdtm#kiseki dear to me#ai di x chen yi#chen yi x ai di#zhang teng#chiang tien#louis chiang#jiang dian#nat chen#chen bowen#userspring#uservid#userrain#userspicy#pdribs#userjjessi#*cajedit#*gif#ai di dressing up as red riding hood as a double fuck you to zhang teng after that day he came threatening at their bar <3#like. ok later when ai di talks about how whoever works for zhang teng doesn't know what they're doing & is all smug about it#and about how easy it was to lure them out and catch them thats fuck you number 1. number 2 is spitefully choosing red riding hood#but also something something ai di never getting to have the childhood that his peers did.#and realizing that & the way he wants to take this opportunity to play around. the way taking on the role of student#is ai di putting on a play just as much as the costume contest is. and he does have fun with it but it also smothers his real self#the real ai di throws away the beanie/fake persona once he's teased about it. the real ai di would have killed zhang teng if he could.#idk i like the reality vs fantasy bit he does to himself. he takes zhang teng's stupid comment like a challenge#ANYWAY DONT YOU LOVE HOW THE ONE (1) BL TROPE CHEN YI AND AI DI GOT IS ALSO TIED TO THE PLOT??? CUZ I DO
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before it felt like a sin, ch. 1
pairing: Sebastian Sallow x f!MC
word count: 3000
summary: Eloise never wanted to be different.
And yet, her differences are what have defined her life up until this point: growing up as a squib in one of the most prominent wizarding families, being exiled to muggle society, and then attending Hogwarts at the age of sixteen.
She finds herself thrust into the life she should have been prepared for from birth but was denied. As she navigates this new life and her new precarious position in her family, she must come to terms with the fact that maybe what she dreamed of her whole life isn't turning out how she ever expected it would.
a/n: Hi everyone!! I decided to post this here too...I'm slowly going through everything I've written so far, and I want to post each chapter here as I edit them. I'm hoping that this can be a way to a) get back in to writing more, and b) get better at my art as I make full illustrations for each chapter. Let me know what you think!! :)
There is nothing quite as horrible as being a muggle, Eloise thought savagely as she ripped out yet another stitch in the landscape she was embroidering. At least, it was supposed to be a landscape. Maybe with her head tilted to the left and with her eyes almost closed so everything blurred together, it might resemble one. She did just that, trying her hardest to make out some recognizable shape and blast the stupid practice of manually pushing colored thread through a fabric in some sort of -
“And what is this, Miss Babbit?”
Eloise jumped at the sound and looked up at the scowling face of her teacher, and then quickly back down at the tangled thread in her lap. Behind her, she could hear the hushed giggles of the other girls in her class.
“Oh! Er…it’s -”
“How long have you been here?” the woman interrupted.
“One hour…I just -”
“Don’t be smart with me. I mean, at this institute.”
“Five years.” Eloise glared down at her embroidery as if it had personally offended her. It wasn’t like she was actively trying to be bad at everything, but she had the distinct disadvantage - how had it ever come to be that she would be at a disadvantage to muggles? - of not having spent a lifetime being prepared for muggle society and all that it entailed. The last five years had been a monotonous, endless cycle of lessons designed to turn her into the perfect lady: French (a waste of time as Eloise was already fluent), embroidery (a waste of time as the things she embroidered weren’t actually useful), dancing (a waste of time as she was already engaged to be married - why would she bother trying to woo another silly man?), and her most dreaded class of all: etiquette. No matter how many years had been spent trying to assimilate into muggle culture, her thoughts still got muddled when she tried to remember the steps to a dance, or how to properly address the son of a duke.
Did it really matter, anyways, what the other girls thought? She had pretended her whole life to be the daughter she thought her parents had wanted - now she was simply pretending that she hadn’t been thrown into the muggle world without a second thought. What was a bit more pretending - that she didn’t care? That she hadn’t been tossed aside without a second thought?
“Exactly. Five years. And yet, you have shown no progress whatsoever. This -” a finger jabbed accusingly at the embroidery - “is absolutely horrendous. If your parents hadn’t continued to make such a sizeable donation every year, I would have deemed you a lost cause and sent you packing when you first arrived. How your family ever managed your betrothal to the son of an earl is beyond me.”
Eloise grimaced at the mention of her fiance as her teacher clapped her hands together to get the attention of the class - a wholly unnecessary action due to the fact that it was already being given. “Class is dismissed. Please collect your belongings and put them in the correct place. Remember, as future wives and mothers, you must be organized in all aspects of your life. Many of you will be managing important households and the slightest misstep -“ a slight glance to Eloise out of the corner of her eye - “can cause the biggest of scandals.”
Eloise raced to gather her things and leave the classroom before everyone else. No matter how many years had been spent at the school, she couldn’t help but hate sitting through the classes amongst the judgmental stares and snide remarks. Although things had started out shaky at the finishing school - to be expected, really, when you’ve grown up in wizarding society and then are then forced to live as a muggle - it still stung that after all these years, she still hadn’t found a friendly face. She was treated as if she were a pariah: it was as if the other girls just knew that something was different about her. But…wasn’t that the great irony of it all? She wasn’t different than them. She was a filthy squib.
When she first arrived at the school, she was an anomaly. A twelve-year-old girl who didn’t know how to play the piano or who the queen was. It was clear to everyone that Eloise wasn’t the charity case of the school - her parents were obviously quite wealthy - and yet they seemingly wanted nothing to do with her. Whereas the others got regular letters and visits from their family, it was as if Eloise were an orphan. Nothing new to her of course, but to her peers this otherness aided them in her ostracization.
Upon entering her room, she was abruptly pulled out of her thoughts. Something wasn’t right. Everything seemed the same: a twin bed perfectly made opposite a small wardrobe, a plain wooden desk placed between them. The weak afternoon sunlight shone through the window, illuminating her desk. But…there.
That…
Placed on her bed, resting on the pillow, was a letter.
She never received letters.
Eloise shoved her embroidery under her bed and hungrily grabbed at it, pausing when she saw the address. Miss E. Babbit. The Third Bedroom on the Left… It seemed vaguely familiar to her in a way she couldn’t quite put her finger on.
As she read the letter, though, it became apparent to her exactly why this was. Although not exactly the same as the one her brother had received six years earlier, it quickly became apparent that this was a Hogwarts letter. For her. For Miss E. Babbit.
Hands shaking, she set the letter down on her desk and sat on the edge of her bed. She smoothed her hands over her skirt over and over, taking comfort in the familiar softness as she tried to even her breathing.
How was this possible? She had all but accepted the fact that she was a squib. The shame of her family, a dirty secret to be hidden away and never talked about or mentioned again. Her parents had suspected as much by the time she had turned seven without any signs of magic whatsoever manifesting around her - not even a basic transformation of brussel sprouts to sweets during dinner. It was ultimately confirmed, however, when her own Hogwarts acceptance letter never arrived. She had spent the whole year before her banishment daydreaming about her life at Hogwarts, still optimistic that there could be something magical inside of her. Her brother, Leo, came home every holiday with wonderful stories of his new friends and teachers, and the subjects he was learning at school. Even back then, at twelve years old, Eloise hadn’t been sure if he was actually hopeful she wasn’t a squib, or if he had been trying to prolong the fantasy for her before it all came crashing down.
Although she had had five years to come to terms with her new life, there was still a small part of her that hoped. A small “what if…”. She had tried time and time again to squash that tiny ray of optimism that would escape every so often, tried so very hard to cultivate a hard exterior that wouldn’t let any sort of vulnerability shine through. And that optimism was a vulnerability, after all. It was that vulnerability that had made it absolutely impossible for her to fit in the muggle world, and made it so that she didn’t really want to try.
Five years to come to terms with the fact that she needed a new purpose for her life and…
…not anymore?
Eloise grabbed the letter and greedily read through it again, drinking in all of the words. She paused at the end, thinking. Was this a forgery? Some sort of awful joke orchestrated by her brother? Leo had never been cruel to her in the past; in fact, he was the one who always encouraged her and was the most probable source of the small optimism that remained within her. However, she had no way of knowing how he had changed since she had last seen him. It had been, after all, five very long years. And not once had she heard from him, even though he had promised her through huge sobbing gulps that he would never abandon her. Maybe their parents had slowly poisoned him against her. It would be right on the nose for them, after all.
Looking at the envelope again, however…Third Bedroom on the Left…no. It was too specific. Nobody in her previous life had any reason to even want to contact her again, and nobody in her current life even knew what Hogwarts was, let alone have the ability to convincingly forge a letter just to have some fun at her expense.
A light, bubbly feeling began to spread throughout her body as it sunk in that this was real. She was going to Hogwarts. Soon, a - squinting at the letter again - a Professor Fig would be contacting her and giving her things to study. A huge grin slowly spread across her face and she hugged the letter to her chest as she fell back on her bed. She read through it again. Was it the fifth time already? It felt as though no amount of times rereading the letter would ever be enough.
Eloise got up and walked over to look at the calendar on her desk. She was surprised to see that September 1st was in only two days. The days at the finishing school moved in such a strange, sluggish way. They all felt the same. Monotonous. French and Latin and embroidery and household management and Merlin even knows what else all blending into each other in an endless parade of dusty classrooms and gossip and boredom.
The light feeling left her in an instant as, after years of practice, the optimism was squashed back down. But how will you even get to London? And, her brain added sneakily, you haven’t even shown any signs of magic. Maybe you’ll just be returned back here after they realize their mistake.
No, she thought fiercely, gripping the letter. Until -
A tapping came from the window. A tentative smile returned at the sight of a tawny brown owl with another envelope in its beak. She ripped it open as soon as it was in her hands (again addressed to Miss E. Babbit) and along with the letter a small, purple pouch fell out of the envelope and onto her bed.
Miss Eloise Babbit,
I am pleased to be the wizard charged with such an important task as escorting you to Hogwarts in two days’ time. It is something extraordinary to be accepted in your fifth-year, and as such, I expect extraordinary things from you. I have enclosed a small pouch along with this envelope, and in it are some items that will be vital to you in the upcoming days. I have included books for you to study at your leisure, and a small gobstone that will bring you to our rendezvous point in London. All you have to do is touch it at noon on the 1st and you will be transported instantly.
Your family has not been informed of your acceptance. I am sure you understand why - at this, Eloise scoffed quietly to herself - which is why I will personally be your escort.
I am looking forward to meeting you and bringing you to the sorting ceremony in two days’ time.
Yours,
Eleazar Fig
The handwriting was tiny and spidery and cramped, but it didn’t stop Eloise from reading it with the same vigor as the previous letter and as many times. Finally, she turned to the small pouch that had fallen onto her bed when she opened the second envelope. It must have had an invisible extension charm, because it was filled to the brim with books on basic spellwork and general wizarding history. Professor Fig had no way of knowing, but Eloise had already read many of these books and many more during the year her brother had started Hogwarts, as she had needed to know absolutely everything about what would be awaiting her. A few years may have passed since she had stepped foot in her family’s library, but she couldn’t get the books or their contents out of her brain even if she had wanted to. She had really wanted to forget everything she knew about the magical world when it was confirmed she was a squib but it was a futile effort. As she zoned out during her piano lessons, she would find herself mentally going through the movements to cast different charms.
It was painful to be thinking about things from the life that had been ripped away from her, to know that what she was thinking about would never come to pass, that she would never be able to wield magic - and yet she couldn’t find herself able to stop.
As Eloise picked out one of the books and settled into her armchair, a steely resolve overcame her.
She would prove that she deserved to be there, and was just as capable as any of they were. She would make her parents regret ever discarding her like she was nothing.
She was worthy. She was capable. And she would prove it.
The morning of September 1st dawned cold and rainy. Absolutely perfect.
Eloise had pretended to be sick the night before, and no one had suspected a thing when she stayed in bed long after all of the other girls had gotten ready and headed to breakfast. As the last of the chattering faded away down the hallway, Eloise finally got out of bed and prepared herself for the day. It was difficult to sit still long enough to braid her hair. Her fingers wouldn’t stop trembling and she had to restart countless times. Finally, she tied the black ribbon at the end into a neat bow and turned to the drawer of her desk to retrieve the small purple pouch she had hidden away.
Everything she deemed important enough to come along with her had already been placed inside: the books from Professor Fig, the hair ribbons gifted to her by her brother many years ago, and some clothing. Nothing else was coming with. She needed the fresh start. Besides, anything else she might need would be supplied, as her acceptance letter had specifically stated that any school supplies would be provided to her.
Waiting the hours before noon came along proved to be more difficult than Eloise had imagined. Time seemed to be moving slower than the molasses that had come with the breakfast sent up to her, the steady patter of the rain becoming a sort of metronome keeping time as she paced back and forth. Wasn’t there anything that could distract her, even for a bit? She glanced at the clock. Only five minutes had passed since the last time. 10.35.
The second hand ticking away in tandem with the sound of rain splashing against her window.
What if this was all a trick? What if she arrived at Hogwarts, and they turned her away because they realized they had made a mistake? After all, why would they admit a sixteen-year-old? Surely she was too old; every other student had started Hogwarts at the age of twelve and had shown signs of magic much earlier than that. She still hadn’t shown any signs of magical capability whatsoever, and didn’t feel any different than she had before receiving the letter. It had to be a fluke.
As her thoughts started veering into the melancholy she was prone to, she shook her head. No. Today was a happy, exciting day. She wasn’t going to squash the optimism down today, not when she needed it most. All of these thoughts she was having were simply that: thoughts. Not reality. Hogwarts never made a mistake, and in all of the history books she had read, she couldn’t recall an instance of someone being turned away at the door. Granted, she had also never heard of someone being admitted so late. But, better to focus on what she did know, which was that she had gotten the letter. It must be right in its assumption that she had magic.
Trying to pass the time was easier said than done. She ended up quizzing herself on all of the charms she had memorized in the books sent by Professor Fig, moving an imaginary wand in the precise movements needed to successfully cast and focusing on her pronunciation. She had studied all of these forms late into both nights she had had the books, and when she would eventually close her eyes to sleep, the wand movements were all she saw.
Eloise was determined that she would receive pity from nobody. Nobody was going to look at her like she was lacking. She had gotten enough of that to last a lifetime, and now that she was given this opportunity she wasn’t about to waste it.
When noon finally struck, Eloise was ready and waiting. She eagerly grabbed the gobstone that was sitting on her desk and felt the familiar tugging sensation in her navel as she was whisked away to London and the beginning of her new life.
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#im just writing this fic for fun & since I’m editing it a bit#I thought it would be fun to challenge myself to do full illustrations for each chapter#(the reason I started these fanarts in the first place was for this🧍♀️)#if you actually read this I would love to know what you think!!#I keep going back & forth between wanting to make a master list and also explain my tag system on this tumblr#but at the same time I like the chaos…🤔#well let me know!! or if you have any suggestions!!💓😙#it starts off a bit slow but this story is VERY canon-divergent#and will have a lot of mythology/magical theory/pureblood society etc etc#i dont expect these to really get much traction bahahahahahaha#but im going to have a lot of fun rereading my fic & making these illustrations🥹💓#hogwarts legacy#hogwarts legacy fanart#hphl#hogwarts legacy oc#hogwarts legacy mc#eloise babbit#sebastian sallow#sebastian sallow x mc#hogwarts legacy fanfic#hogwarts legacy fic#oh also???? how do you format these things??????????????? anyways the chapter is up on ao3 and honestly the whole fic up to chapter 22😆😆#but if you have any suggestions lmk!!!!#like do I put the warnings for the whole fic on each chapter?? put only the chapter warnings??? literally this is me: 🧍♀️#a poor confused technology grandma
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Some of you will see a character that is actively repulsed by romance/sex and heavily non-partner coded (sometimes they even actively just say that they do not want a relationship!) and y'all will still respond with "But aros/aces can still date and have sex!!" like okay bud it'd be so much easier for you to say you don't respect repulsed and non-partnering aros and aces. stop beating around the bush trying to pretend to be oh so supportive when you obviously feel uncomfortable about our existence even in fiction.
#text#aro#ace#aromantic#asexual#aroace#romance repulsed#sex repulsed#non-partnering#non partnering#nonpartnering#just admit that you don't respect repulsed and non-partnering identities buddy it'll be so much easier to block u that way#like do you realize how stupid you sound when you guys do this sort of thing?#all for what? shipping??? because being aphobic is fun to you??? because you dont like looking critically at your biases???#because you're so set on believing your a good person that challenging that to actually be one is way too hard and uncomfortable for you?#'people can ship what they want' yeah and people can judge you for it too#people can judge who you are and if they trust or like you based off your actions#shocking isn't it?#some of y'all sound like children going “but but but if i cant ignore their identity then how will i have fun” like grow tf up#you have a million other characters that you can play with in the way you like#not having access to one is not going to kill you or ruin your life
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hello!! just wondering whether anyone would be interested in a September-based art & writing event focussed on celebrating the female characters in the LU fandom?
i've been thinking about trying to organise something like this for a few months now, but i'm finally speaking up, because this morning i had an idea...
we could call it:
✨Sepfember✨
anyway, if you'd be interested in a september event, let me know!
#linked universe#lu event#social tag#sepfember#ISNT THAT THE MOST CHEESY SILLY NAME??? I LOVE IT#anywayz. i'm a fairly small blog but if people are interested i would love to organise an event like this!!#we can have character days for all the princesses and npcs and epona (LOL the closest thing we have to a female mc in LU is the horse 🤣🤣)#or prompts???#i can make a collection on ao3 for fics!!!#and it can be really chill and fun. no pressure no goals just lots of hype for our women!!!#including our new echoes of wisdom heroine whoever she may be#and all fanworks would be welcome of course. it doesn't just have to be an art & writing event#podfics playlists memes headcanons etc#and trans/genderfluid hcs! and genderbending! all welcome#i just want a chance to celebrate girls#also PLS LET ME KNOW IF YOU HAVE ANY OTHER IDEAS FOR THE EVENT???#i would love suggestions of fun things!!!#i was thinking about calling it the#women in linked universe challenge#but sepfember has a much better ring dont u think? hehe#women#✨✨#fandom event
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In This Podunk Town — A South Park fanmix about the tumultuous experience of growing up with (and sometimes growing apart from) your best friends in a your insane little hometown.
Cover art by me (an homage to The Great Depression by Defiance, Ohio)
Listen here.
Tracklist ⤵
This Feels Better — Defiance, Ohio | Bleed American — Jimmy Eat World | Bored Teenagers — The Adverts | Feel Like Rain — Motion City Soundtrack | Seattle — Public Image LTD. | No Rest For The Weekend — Orange | Working Title — Mt. Eddy | Knowledge — Operation Ivy | Big Lizard — The Dead Milkmen | Kids — The Frights | Halloween 3.5 — Rozwell Kid | Dry Heat/Nice Town — Cheekface | Familiar Patterns — PUP | Don’t Die In Yr Hometown — Antarctigo Vespucci | Fat Lip — Sum 41 | Minor Threat — Minor Threat | Hey Suburbia — Screeching Weasel | Stand There Until You’re Sober — Bomb the Music Industry! | Let’s Get Breakfast — Walter Mitty and His Makeshift Orchestra | Circles ‘Round the Moon — Nana Grizol
#south park#south park art#south park fanart#south park playlist#south park fanmix#stan marsh#kenny mccormick#kyle broflovksi#eric cartman#south park main four#sp#sp art#sp fandom#mine#this playlist is the more curated version of the playlist i just dump songs into when i have any sort of 'hey this could connect to one of#these guys—' thoughts/what i listen to when i do a lot of my sp art. mostly a playlist in the vein of 'songs that make me think of them'#but i think it also is largely the kinds of stuff i could see them listening to. idk. perhaps thats just me projecting.#also tried for a bit of a mix of silly vs serious songs lmao. like big lizard is just a situation i think they'd find themselves in. yk.#also yes for the little x-ray picture that is based on the kidrobot anatomy figures hehe#also i did all that art in black + white so dont ask for color versions they dont exist. + i reused some random old stuff for the tracklist#but anyway trying to recreate that album cover was a fun little challenge. i prob could have done a little better with the stitching stuff#but i got tired and just wanted this out there sfdhgjf#also yes i did make a separate spotify acount just to post this playlist. i have irl friends who follow my main ok
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How i envisioned Danny's ghost form/Phantom in my Danyal Al Ghul au (images at bottom of post). His ghost form has some pr heavy influence from the League, because I thought it'd be neat + to kinda show how even after four years, the League still had some kind of impact on who is he as a person. Plus some milder Robin influence in his boots and the cape (which i meant to be split down the middle to have some kind of 'bird wing' silhouette) as a way to indicate his lingering desire to meet his dad.
The pauldron lookin-thing on his upper chest is based off certain Danny Phantom designs I see that give him that white,,, marking,,, thing. I've been calling it the Jedi Chestplate because it reminds me of the clone wars Jedi armor. So like, slight homage to his hazmat suit.
(not pictured: his thermos and his sword)
behold! the judgmental lil shit (affectionate) himself
#dpxdc#dp x dc#dpxdc art#mediocre starry art#dpdc#danyal al ghul au#danny fenton is not the ghost king#older brother danny#i thought about giving him a mask but felt it would make him look too busy#i originally made his scar larger but then i remembered he got that scar when he was five. and thus the scar would have shrunk over time#prolly could've been smaller but. oh well :)#the lack of fenton influence isn't intentional i promise its just that i couldn't combine all three things at once without risk of making#the outfit look overly busy LMAO. ignore his hands they're my weakpoint#'judgmental lil shit' quote goes to the-navistar-carol for being the first thing she said when i showed her the fanart#fun fact the tail of the lightning bolt going behind the P is supposed to be a mockup of the tail of the Robin “R” which is another subtle#indicator of Danny's desire to be part of his father's life and not having it. he's never gonna be robin and he knows it but that doesnt#mean some part of him doesnt still want to. ugh the pants look awful but i dont want to spend any more time than i already have fixing them#because. drawing on mobile suckkkkksssss. starry draw danny with short hair challenge: task denied
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denying so hard that there's a disconnect between what im learning within art, and other skills needed but it's undeniable that like. ill draw anatomy studies and faces all day but when i try to Make Something Else, Something Real, it's like all the information leaves me....
i always joke that ill be stuck on the foundations and fundamentals of art forever but it seems like its real because mechanical skill and comprehension of Structure is very much a different thing than. being able to connect a head and body in a streamlined way. good stylization. informed stylization. creativity. knowledge of composition, color and what makes a piece work.
i keep trying to make things and realize i still need more time in the fundamentals. more and more and its never enough....and then i forget em constantly !
#talkys#ill just keep filling pages and pretending its doing anything#as if ill ever draw more than just. floating head. figure standing. floading head. figure standing#i dont understand how people gain knowledge cumulatively#just because I can draw talon's face doesnt mean i wouldnt need another 3 years to master another character enough to draw them well#ive drawn al for over a decade i already need to relearn to draw him#information leaves me and doesnt seem to transfer. every new thing needs 5 years dedicated to learning it to draw it well.#and then the knowledge leaves as soon as i have to switch subjects.#because every single subject is a different and unique challenge#i dont knowwwwww#so sad...i mean people have not gotten what they want for years and years but so sad that this isnt what i was meant to do#that ill never make work that is the work id like to make...! never beautiful illustrations...never fun sequential art...alas. alas#wrong body wrong brain#im glad other ppl enjoy my work and i recognize that but i want to like it too.....!
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Lights, Camera, Sing Your Sins Archive 🎥
This is just so I can reference au things and keep details organized lol, I'll edit this post and try to keep it updated
Original Post/fic link
Original Art (by waivyjellyfish)
Extra Thoughts
Song Ask
Song Drabble
Scripted Harm Ask 1
Scripted Harm Ask 2
Scripted Harm Ask 3
Scripted Harm Drabble
Movie Night Ask 1
Movie Night Ask 2
Cover Song Ask 1
Cover Song Ask 2
Misc Thoughts Ask
MV Es Ask
Es/Jailbreak Team Ask 1
Es/Jailbreak Team Ask 2
Kazui Makeup Ask
Kazui Makeup Drabble
Kotoko Thumbnail Drabble
Hair Growth Ask
Yuno fic "Fell and Found Out" (by amugoffandoms)
Order of Attack AU Drabble
#thank you everyone for such incredible ideas#i never get this deep into aus so its been a ton of to collaborate on so many ideas and details :D#but i also realized the posts were getting spread out and i wanted a quick way to find things given my challenged memory 😅#there were a few other posts just having fun chatting :) i didnt forget about them -- i was just collecting info-related ones#i almost dont feel as bad for not writing more fic looking at all the extra stuff i have here lol#and once again if you make au content you are morally obligated to tell me so I can SEE >:3#lights camera sing your sins#milgram
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god im so glad i got smt iv and decided to go in blind
#that game is so good easily one of my favorites of all time#smt iv#salty talks#ive been thinking abt it and wanting to talk abt it bc. ough#that games setting is so fucking good and so well done. i really didnt expect where it would go and how it would use its setting#even tho i know the ost names and listened to them. and that game knocked me flat on my ass like three times my first time through#god i love the setting of smt iv i love how you get exactly as much information as the mc does i love how naturally you learn abt the world#entering the ueno undergeound district without yet understanding what tokyo’s deal was waa so cool#also the combat is p satisfying and a good challenge and i like the main characters and the plot is rlly good#i havent gotten all the endings yet either wo i still dont fully understand whats going on and im so eager to see what im missing#its just. god its such a good game. even when it drags with level grinding and just wandering around its fun#also old gamefaqs forum threads and w/e abt smt iv i would be lost in naraku w/o you god there are so many essential smt iv guides there#its just. god smt iv. i have literally not interest in checking out apocalypse lol. but oh my god smt iv
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ngl i thought that zakenna was going to be an mv set some time in idol sengen s1 before the mv dropped. like, her frustrations could’ve been a reference to her post-first concert flop era, her rival mentions could’ve been referring to lxl and/or asuna, and all the underdog mentions could also have been a reference or two to how she was a complete nobody at the start of her career…
and there was also doromizu line no. 1 from the tv arc which sealed the misconcepton deal s o b s
#rewatching zakenna after reading moge’s fanbox post kinda hits different in a sense…#but m a n i do not miss that hour i wasted looking up meanings for doromizu bc that. was. not fun!!!!!!!!!#i just didnt want to make mona say that she was gonna drink mud ok n. o. *no way*#tling idol sengen really does make me have to look up the darndest things…#just the other night i spent an hour looking up a term to describe a group of people who started working at the same job at the same time…#…yeah. well. i eventually settled for the word ‘batch’. i still can’t find a better word for it. but. man. im open to suggestions!!!!!!!!#and there was also the 30 min googling session for ‘unpleasant ways to say goodbye’. ended up down a rabbit hole of the nuances of farewells#the next 2 main chapters of idol sengen dont seem to be too challenging in the idiom department… but man~ last chapter was. just. y e a h#thanks rippei for being the bane of my existence!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#ok i think i need to stop thinking about rippei bc my headache’s kinda comin back u m.#though i think it’s kinda funny in a certain way that i got a mild fever after zakenna dropped yesterday lol#sorry for celebrating mona mv instead of country day yesterday sorry for not lovin’ the ground on which i walk pls take this headache baack—#and y u p headache’s officially back bye y’all i think i need to watch yesterday’s firework vids to try to chase it off byebye
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camp nano is so funny this year cause i've had fun every time i've written i've had no problems with writing this month no stress no struggle but i did just kind of forget i was doing camp nano
#i mean it was unofficial anyway bc i dont use the website anymore. just like being part of the fun#challenges always trigger me to start + make progress but i so rarely finish them. but im satisfied because i got somewhere. do you get me#like LOOOVE the progress i have made but if i want to follow my original goal i'd have to write 10k in 10 days lol#which like. doable but do i want to? lets find out
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The urge to spend a 100$ on merch before getting my paycheck is so strong. I might not survive soldiers
#Priorities! Next month no food challenge#At least I can eat my vinyls and CDs 🥰#Man fr I could starve but if Id have some albums#Id be happy#eating my own organs and shit#Okay yes I officially lost it but!#ahiajwineidn the voices#I want to spend money#🐈⬛🐈⬛🐈⬛🐈⬛🐈⬛🐈⬛🐈⬛🐈⬛🐈⬛#Tbh i only eat cheap ass bread anyways so maybe we can do it 👻#me tryna convince myself this would be a good idea and i wouldn't die#Mnaiaisns9jwkq but it's motivation? to keep working right?#....... IM ABT TO ORDER STUFF#IDEK WHAT. BUT. THE. VOICES.#like im soo thinking abt buying the mortal vinyl or atsushis vinyll CUZ THEY LOOK SO GOOD.#I DONT HAVE A MF LP PLAYER BUT IMMA BUY ONE AS WELL#aaaaaaaaa🫠🫠🫠🫠🫠🫠#HM. HmmMM. i can get an LP player on facebook market place rightttt that wont be expensive righttttt#oh to not have to pay 30$ for. shipping would be so good#Ahhhhhhhhh. 😾#Gimme money#Actually I don't even have the money! idek how much am i gonna get paid! but im just thinking abt ordering stuff and hoping ill have enough#insanity is my middle name tbh#also i hate how i literally. dont keep track of my money and i always act on impulse 😭#like man idc how much u pay me i see i have enough imma spend it all#but i should save up to finally move my mf ass away from this great environment i live in#but dang is it hard next to school#getting paid less than minimum wage as a student lowkey. is not fun#But idk what to do cuz i cant skip school to work 😭 so this is shit#n e ways goodnight ily who reads my 3556th diary entry
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hmmm maybe... I will play ts4 today 🤔
#i have some screenshots to edit i might just end up doing that#but then i see someones pretty or fun posts and im like man i miss sydney i need to get on with that challenge#i have a therapy appointment for the next three days and i dont want to go 😭
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Y’all is Hollow Knight hard or do I just suck because oh my god??
#not gonna inflict my ramblings onto someone else’s post so just making a text post for myself#but oh my god#what the fuck?#maybe I’m not a hardcore metroidvania fan but I like them well enough#do I suck that badly at games now?? am I old to the point that my hands can’t do this shit????#did I just somehow fuck myself at some point???#because wow this feels kind of sadistic????#and not even in the fun kind of way?????#like I think I’d rather submit myself to fear and hunger again rather than continue where I am now in hk#idk maybe I’m missing something#but I just got wall jump and was so happy until I fell down to where you can challenge those mantis dudes#got myself out of there but then as I was exploring northwest I keep dying and reviving from the fucking bouncy balls over water#and the normal mantis mobs are also kicking my ass?#and dont even get me started on the weird tentacley nuclear bomb mushroom things those are just bullshit#AND THEN AS I WAS HAVING A GOOD TIME EXPLORING HEADING TOWARDS A SAVE BENCH I GET DROPPED INTO DEEPNEST??????#WHAT KIND OF JUMPSCARE BULLSHIT??????????#AND THE FUCKING COCKROACHES THAT NEVER SEEM TO STOP SPAWNING KILL ME#and then I see how fucking far back I’ve been dropped in the corner of fungal wastes#and I try jumping through the fucking bouncy balls again#and I die and lose my money#I can’t fucking do this shit anymore y’all holy fucking shit#the number of times I’ve died and restarted from that fucking fungal wastes bench I am so sick of it 💀#legit I think this is the first time I’ve rage quit a game#it’s been a while since a game’s actually made me this angry I want to fucking throw something 😂#the willpower and self control I needed to not chuck my pro controller across the room…#if I didn’t have neighbors and a unit below me I’d be throwing shit for sure though#but instead I must smack pillows against my mattress in a rage 😂#I think I hate the ‘go back to where you died to get back your money’ punishment system… like legit I actually really really hate it.#I do think the game is fun and I know I’ll probably quickly gain the money… but it feels like the game’s telling me I fucking suck lmao#suffice to say I will not be playing any more hollow knight for the foreseeable future 💀
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